This week was awesome! I returned back home yesterday from Malta, such a beautiful and full of culture island^^ I really really love it❤



Malta is probably one of the most touristic place here in Europe and damn you can feel it lol. Even though it's September you can actually find a lot of tourists from all over the Earth and so so many activities you can do, from cruises to museums to hiking to simply enjoy the many beautiful beaches^^ Me and my friends stayed in Malta just five days but they were FULL X3



We booked an hotel at Valletta and through those days we went to two different beaches, some pubs, one archeological museum, one maltese restaurant and a korean one and to Starbucks. It probably sounds kinda weird or something but I never went to a Starbucks (simply because there's none where I live lol) and guys... I fell in love with the iced macha latte XD What a shock! I was convinced that place only had coffee with different flavors and stuff! Yeah, it was a pleasant discovery since I hate coffee's taste lol.



On the first day, or better, night when we arrived, we went to a pub where one of our friends works and we ordered and consumed something like 48 vodka shots, maybe more lol. That was a fantastic start for this vacation haha! The day after we opted for something more relaxed: morning on the beach, swimming in crystalline water and then we spent the rest of the day walking through Valletta streets, window shopping, tasting some snacks and going to the museum :3

I love museums so much^^

The third day we went to a nudist beach (it was an experience to do lol) and in the evening we visit Mdina❤ A really magical medieval town❤ Of couse at night we went to the pub for some more vodka shots after haha XD

The fourth day we did a little 20min gondola ride through a part of the island and then we went to a niche nightclub and it was awesome! I adore very loud music dancing with people :D

So sad the day after we had to go to the airport :')

I do enjoyed the beauty of Malta, even the recklessness of the drivers and I mean all drivers, Bolts, taxis, bus... Everybody!



It was so so fun and I have to be sincere, I'm alrealy feeling so nostalgic about the place :')





Oh come on... I can't believe it, now that I can finally start to work on the project I'm starting to feel sick.



I feel slughis and tired. I probably got a flu too and it seems I can't stop coughing so much. I hope I don't have tubercolosis or something. Shit, it stress me out so much feeling ill like this!

I already go to my personal doctor and he prescribed me an antibiotic, hoping that it is enough. I feel my temperature rising tho, that's not a good sign... But before I'll go to rest a bit I want to finish the pages sketches so I can let my boss sees them and telling me if there are some corrections needed.



I already feel exausted and I don't like it.









It happened again and it sincerely piss me off soooo much >.< After like a week of terrible cough and fever I have my lymph nodes swollen again... It already happened three years ago but it was way better, I mean, I only had my neck visibly swollen but nothing else, no fever, coughs, sore throat ect. Back then I did an inconclusive biopsy and the swell just disappeared out of thin air so I wasn't diagnosed with anything nor I had some medicine to take or whatever.

This time I have it all and I don't like it.



This time really feels so worse.



Not only a feeling actually... This morning I went to the doctor for an echography and during the visit I've seen how worried he was bc he saw how my lymph nodes are way too big, especially in comparison with how they were three years ago. I have to be sincere, I'm really scared rn.



Still hoping for the best. These days I have to do a lot of check-ups.





I can't believe it! Coughing so much is killing me so bad. These days I ever spit blood and almost vomiting everytime wth! And now, after two days of repeated blood exams because my doctor wasn't sure about some results and another one done this early morning at the ER, guess where I am? In one of the hospital room, hospitalized in the infectious disease ward... That sucks. I feel so sick righ now.



I hope it's not something REAAALLY that serious, even tho they give me code red and I can see the doctor and the nurses around me how worried they are. Damn...



Plus, I need to continue the EW fan project, I can't stop now. I just need my dad to bring me the computer and the tablet one of these days so I can continue to draw, hopefully without problems and hoping I won't stay here for long. Finger crossed, I guess :')





I'm not used to take pills, I can feel my stomach upset and the cough is still pretty strong for now, but I guess it is a tiny bit better. I mean, I don't see blood on my saliva anymore so that's something good, am I right?

This morning, at 11am, the doctors came in my room and they gave me my diagnosis. Wow, it was fast! At least I already know what I have and they can be faster with the cure I need... but I gotta be honest, even though I almost suspect it already, hearing that I got acute lymphoblastic leukemia left a bad taste on my mouth... I mean, of couse, right? Who ever in the entire world would feel good after this news?!



I'm still shocked but at least I'm happy the doctors reassured me saying that this type of leukemia is easy to defeat, especially because I'm very young and they diagnosed me so early. So yeah, I guess I shouldn't be too scared about it... I have to keep my mind very strong so I can defeat this shit of a illness, that's the first step, or so people said to me.



I believe it too though, I have to.



Doctors said my white blood cells are WAY to high so for now the first thing is to lower this level.

For now I just have to wait the medicines to work, pills and cortisone.















Until now my doctors go to my room and say everything is going super well, I'm so grateful :) I guess it is true then, the mind is stronger than the body and these days I tried to be the more positive I can be, like never in my entire life... Nothing so granted tho, because I always suspected I have depression or something like that.

I know I know, I've never went to a psychologist so I can't say anything about that at the end but, y'know, some things you can feel it even without an official diagnosis, am I right? People can feel when something is wrong or missing in their head, or at least it can happen sometimes, I think.



Oh well, for now I'm just so happy that the cortisone and the antibiotics are working incredibly well❤ It seems that my body is taking all this in a good way after all :)

It's been days that I don't cough and my fever is gone too, even my neck returned back to his original size lol. Yeah, seems that everything is going great and, tbh, I'm kinda relaxing here. Yes, it is a bit boring not having much to do and feeling pretty tired and sleepy all the time but at least I don't hear the constant arguing of my family about everything everyday and here all the personnel treats me VERY well and kindly. I surely can't argue on that haha.



This afternoon I started my first chemo and it kinda sucks unfortunately... I layed on bed almost all the time feeling exausted and, even worse, nauseated... So so much nauseated. I expected that tho, it is included in the chemo package, with the possibility to lose weight and hair. I mean, it's not set in stone that I'll lose my hair, I hope so much :') For now, seeing how the things are going, I'm kinda more concerned about this possibilty than other things haha. Still hoping for the best.



Even though, thinking about it, in that case I will not have any problems wearing wigs, no itching nor heatstroke... That sounds pretty cool lol. Imagine how much customizable I could be hehehe.



I'm happy that I was able to work on the project too, even if I don't feel at my best rn, I'm pretty confident that I'll finished my job very soon. Can't wait to see my contribution to this amazing fan project beign posted and I hope that people would like it too as much as myself.